Immersion in Love

I woke up in Heaven in August, 1990. I was immersed in Love. And the Love was God. And God Loved me with the intensity and core of Its Being, which is everything. And I Loved It-All-Me with the intensity and core of Being, which is everything. There is nothing more to search for after that.

Then, after some "experiences" similar to the one above, I was brought back to this world. I found myself standing in my room, my head back and my eyes up. Stunned, opened, in a state of Grace I opened my ACIM book and was led to read "The Happy Dream."

I spent two weeks in joy. During the last few days, the joy and vision and sense of completion faded, and disappeared. Then I was bereft. I didn't want to be here. But one thing I knew, God is Real. That awareness has served to bring me here, a brighter place.

It was a 20-year voyage in this place called time - world - place. A Course in Miracles (ACIM) and other tools have served in my healing, of the healing of Laurie. This healing has been to remove the blocks to the awareness of love's presence. Block by block. Surrender by surrender.

I have a vision of a computer game, remove the blocks to the awareness. It's about surrender. I have to give up playing the game, sit back and let a Higher Source play the game through me. I will try to interfere, but will be most successful when I put down my "arms."

That's this world I'm seeing. A computer game. A play. A dream. An image. An imagination. It's a tool...or a weapon, depending on how I see it. It serves me, or it serves me up on a platter. My choice. It's amazing how often I picked the latter choice, thinking I had no choice. But, no guilt. It didn't really matter wh...at I chose, because the end is sure.

Forgiveness is my message from Holy Spirit today

This morning I was listening to Holy Spirit. My mind was noisy again, for a short time. I just want to give first, what my lesson/message was from Him so I don't forget.

He said I can apply forgiveness all day, more than I realized before. I can see that forgiveness is a part of the Diamond I saw from being in Heaven. The Diamond represents all the aspects of reality or those things in the illusion that lead to reality. So not only are giving and receiving the same, but forgiveness is the same with them because they are all parts, all facets of the Diamond.

He said I could use forgiveness all day long, practically in every minute.

One of the things he showed me is that I haven't forgiven myself for all the unforgiving roles I've played as a body in the illusion. It can work when you think of “past lives” or if you work with only “one life,” for as we know from ACIM Teacher's Manual:

There is no past or future, and the idea of birth into a body has no meaning either once or many times. Reincarnation cannot, then, be true in any real sense. Our only question should be, “Is the concept helpful?” [M.24.para1.lines 2-4]

So I was looking at some drama from my dream when I awoke this morning, and the Holy Spirit used it to help me in this way. In the drama, sometimes I was a prisoner/slave and sometimes I was a guard. The picture kept changing so I went back and forth being slave/master/prisoner/guard without a break in the story line. When I was a guard most of the time I felt so “good.” I wasn't afraid of anything and I felt like I was one of the good people. When I was a slave or prisoner I felt fear and guilt and shame and anger. I was in the group of people trying to escape. Next thing I know, I'm trying to stop the prisoners from escaping and from hurting us, the “innocent” ones.

So, fast forward to now: because I haven't forgiven myself for all the unforgiving roles I've played as a body in the illusion, I find many ways to keep this “role play” going on and on. One thing He showed me I do is to look for the role play when I watch TV: I like shows that I can use to make myself feel innocent, I join in the role of someone in the show. Obviously, this is the answer to the reason I like to watch shows in which they find the guilty person and lock them up, so we “good” people can be safe. But also, that it works in ways that don't seem so obvious. That I like some science fiction because the people in it are free of guilt, they are following noble goals, they are not trapped in “old-world” thinking.

There was a lot more coming to me from Holy Spirit but I'm going to finish this retelling of it for now. The main thing was that I can use forgiveness much more than I thought I could as the day goes on. Holy Spirit said that in almost every moment that I am “in the world” there is an opportunity for forgiveness.

Then when the lesson was over I had a clear mind again. I felt peaceful. And so grateful to have a bigger picture of how to forgive throughout the day.

Forgiving as it teaches in ACIM: that this is only a dream, you and I are not guilty, we are spirit. We are One with God and with each other. There are no bad people, no good people. There is only Us and we are in this together.

Thank you Father.

Hugs all

My Light Experience and A Course in Miracles

In 1990, I had an experience similiar to a Near-Death Experience (NDE) in which I went to Heaven and met God. Of course, it changed my life!

So much has happened since then, but I continue to feel the Presence of God wherever I go, even when I'm having a "bad day." This experience and my studies of A Course in Miracles have helped me see the Light of God in every face, and it's there, just as He showed it to me. I know I am so blessed, or as most people would say it, so lucky, to have experienced this.

I want to hear from you about your experience or anything else you care to share about your life and your search, or discovery, of God's Light.

I believe the light experience I had was influenced so much by my study of A Course in Miracles (also called the Course or ACIM).

I came to a point where I was desperate. I had searched for years for answers to help me with this difficult life full of pain, depression and despair with thoughts of suicide when I found the Course.

Once I started petitioning God to take me Home, I couldn't stop. I know that I felt I could trust God completely, and that if I could only reach God, everything would get better. I really believed that. And it proved to be true.

I still think about being Home inside of God, and I know we are all there right now, just as He showed me.

If you are interested, read my experience and come back here to share your thoughts on it, and hopefully on your own experiences of Light. Its available at: http://www.lightexperiences.com/laurieimmekus.htm

I would love to hear from you and I promise to respond to every one who takes the time to post here.

May you have peace and know love,

Laurie Immekus