Spirit Guide in my dreams teaching me

I had another amazing dream...oh, I forgot, I didn't put the other one here. Last month I had a dream and actually saw one of my spirit guides and saw/felt/experienced how we were connected by a "rope of love". It was amazing, wonderful, uplifting and I knew it was a true connection. I saw the face with love outpouring of my spirit guide and it has infused me. Then night before last I had another dream

and I saw a different spirit guide with so much love pouring into me, into everything. Again, it lifted me to a higher perspective where I am experiencing everything is divine. Thank you, Oneness, for your everlasting love. This month I have been receiving the awareness of how I am being healed more and more, how greater Self esteem is being revealed to me as the untruths fall away. I saw how before

.I had a "desire" to have a relationship with someone, and I felt like I was "without" them, like I needed them to make me feel whole. As the Spirit is healing that in me it is leaving behind the clear experiencial knowledge that I have no need for something from the outside. The "low" self esteem is melting in the sunlight of True Self esteem. It's so hard to explain, but I see it in my mind as it is happening

This is something that I have heard others explain and I sometimes wondered if they were saying that they didn't need other people anymore, meaning that they were complete in their own little self. That is not the meaning here, I am saying I already am connected to that other person, persons, in fact, all persons. I am experiencing the awareness of that connection, and in that, there is no more need

There is only need where a lack appears to be. The imagined "wall" between me and others is melting. This reminds me of that song, Macarthurs Park, LOL! Oh Macarthurs park is melting in the dark, oh the sweet cream icing flowing down...only it's not melting in the dark, it's melting in the Light of Real connection, Real Love...Oneness. So it seems like I haven't been doing much lately, but in actuality, I have been

watching this occur, and feeling so much joy in the experience, in the unfolding. It's so amazing

And the love I have for others now is magnified. It's much easier to see them as the love they are, rather than the complaints, the angers, the lacks, the irritations...those things are so so so much easier to overlook. I see on the Horizon that I will, someday, not even see those things at all. And I have noticed that the more often I take time to just get quiet with Spirit...the more I am healed.

It's not a platitude, it's a real process. Well, real in the sense that I am experiencing it happening in my awareness. So yesterday I was experiencing that everything was in perfect order, everything that I experienced was like a ballet...it all just flowed together...it didn't matter what it was, each experience just flowed into each other experience like a divine dance. Thanks for listening, Dear Love.

Spirit helps me "cope" with other's pain

As I was saying in an earlier post today, I was having an amazing experience of the divine dance yesterday. 

During this time, I got a phone call from someone who was not as happy as I was. She was saying how I whitewashed things about people and didn't see the "truth" about them, not like her. 

No, I said, I'm seeing things from a different perspective. 

Then I thought, wow, what a waste to not be able to use the "painful gifts" of others to help you learn how to forgive, how to forgive yourself, how the let go of feeling like a victim, how to learn to soar in the freedom of this joyous feeling. I was thinking, wow, I'm so glad I'm able to use this painful gift so much more than I used to.

I said, would you rather be right or happy? If you didn't recognize it, that is from A Course in Miracles. It's a a famous question because the ego always wants to be right. The ego says, I know what's going on here, they are hurting me on purpose, they are crucifying me, I'm the victim, they are the perpetrators, I'm innocent, they are devils, I'm right...miserable, but right. 

So when I don't see that about the ego, I don't realize that it's always true that what you see in others, you see in yourself. You cannot see a devil without believing it is you as well. I said, Peace is something really really worth protecting. I didn't say much because I'm letting Love guide me, when I can get out it the way, LOL. I am reminded that it doesn't matter what I say, what I said, it doesn't matter. I probably won't reach into someone else's heart with words. (Funny for an English Major to say that, LOL!) It's the love in my mind that really helps, so I just started visualizing the person I was talking to as being what they truly are, the light, the love, the Real Light, the Real Love, the Connecting Force. Thank you for the opportunity for more healing, Dear Love.

Note: I was thinking, oh my friend is not seeing that. And now I'm seeing, Neat! They are a mirror to me. There is still a part of me that sees the "devil" in others, no matter how "small" that part is, or I wouldn't even see it in that friends words. I wouldn't see anything but the Divine Light that she is.

What has Laurie been doing?

I'm speaking of myself in the third person in the title here, as if I have a staff of people who are behind the scenes going, "Well, let's see, how should we phrase this? She hasn't been posting here for so long and now she has started again. How do we explain this? Do we tell them what is really going on, or should we smooth it over with some creamy smoothing words designed to make pretend that the Grand Pretense in real, real, real..."

O sorry! As you can see from the picture I'm having fun delving into the silly meanderings of the ego thoughts that I hear. I do sometimes listen to my thoughts, as Eckhart Tolle so helpfully tells us to do, but sometimes they are just too entertaining to throw away.

What have I, the entity known as Laurie Immekus, been doing? Where have I been? How would you like that answer, in terms of where in the world or where in the mind?

Okay, in the mind until recently I had been experiencing a hellish existence, full of "delightful opportunities for forgiveness" for some time, perhaps for most of this lifetime. As I worked more and more with spiritual principles it became more and more extreme. I was too despairing to write about it here, or maybe I was taking it too seriously, because everyday was a "fracking" (scifi fans will get that word) challenge to find some peace of mind. When I was with other people, it was easier, most of the time. But not with all people.

I don't want to focus on that too much because it appears to be over. I am now, thank you All That Is Holy, experiencing such great peace and joy, and I'm so grateful.

I had friends who said that Peace was so important, it was so worth it to reorganize your life even if it meant letting go of a lot of things that were seemingly important, but were causing you too much unhappiness. Mary and Robert of Pathways of Light told me that, and thank you so much dear friends. I finally saw this was the direction for me. I let go of some things, including a friendship with someone, because I couldn't be peaceful around him. It was something I didn't want to do because I believed that I should be able to apply the concepts of the Course (A Course in Miracles) to all my relationships.

Now who do you think was thinking that I should do something? Could it be, oh I don't know--the ego? LOL! Yeah, who else?

I got clear on that part, that it was the ego that was telling me basically that I needed to make myself be peaceful about everything that was happening in my life. I had been believing I had to tow the line, and like it, or otherwise I wasn't being a good Course student. LOL!

I let that go.

Then I had another jolt! I started to see that I had been believing this: that I needed to take care of my friend, that it was my responsibility and that he couldn't make it without me. When I tried to let this friend go out of my life, I felt so guilty for abandoning him.

Wow, how grateful am I that I finally became aware of that, AND that I was able to take that to Spirit. Spirit healed me so so so so so much.

What is my responsibility? Well, if I believe the Course, and I do, my only responsibility is to accept the Atonement for myself. To me that means to accept the truth, that only Love is real, that everyone is connected, that I am not in charge of keeping the world safe or even one person safe. I am not in charge of anything except my willingness to turn to Spirit for every need. Thank you thank you thank you Spirit. I love you so much.

What happened to my friend? Within days, my friend was living with other people, safe and sound. Spirit took care of him, too, and still does, I'm sure, in every way.

Okay, so what is Lau-- , ahem, am I doing now? I think I will take that to the next post. I Love you, Dear Love Heart.

My initial experience starting the Pathways of Light Ministerial Program

What follows is going to be very embarrassing to me to share. The reason I am doing it is that Holy Spirit tells me that it will be helpful to the Mind we share. I hope you don't think badly of me for the kinds of thoughts I had which I share here, but I guess I have decided that if Holy Spirit wants me to share this, then it will be okay for me to look like a fool. Okay so here goes:

I had great resistance to starting the Pathways of Light (PoL) courses, even though I also had a great desire to do them. The first four courses took me about a year, with a lot of spaces in between.

I found the first course particularly difficult. I didn't think I liked starting with something that looked (to me) like it was for beginners.

At that time I had been studying ACIM for 17 years facilitating and educating, and had been in 12-step groups before that facilitating and sponsoring. During the last 20ish years, I had facilitated, taught, written, illustrated, ate and slept spirituality. I had also been a member of the Milwaukee ACIM community on broadcasting ACIM discussion groups on public access for three years. Further, I had a brilliant mystical light experience waking up inside of God. I was such an expert!

So I looked at the first PoL course, 132: Self-Image Transformations, and I wondered what I had gotten myself into. How was I going to complete this course? As I skimmed through it I thought, this is beneath me. It's below me. I am so much more advanced than this. I worked on stuff like this before I started ACIM. Now what?

Well, I heard the thought, I could just read the questions and fill in the answers, and I will get through the minister program and get my minister's credentials. Then I'll be a minister. And on and on with this kind of thinking.

I saw I was having these thoughts, and I felt guilty about them, but I couldn't get past them. And I didn't want to just do the courses to get my minister's credentials. I knew that was not a path I wanted to take. So while I was watching my mind, my own thoughts were repulsing me. At that time I don't think I shared that with others.

So I did meditate pretty often and one day soon after that the Holy Spirit said, "You can learn something to help you where ever you are from anything in the world, Laurie. What you can do with the PoL courses that will be most helpful to you is to apply them to whatever is happening in your life at the same time that you read that particular course. And if something comes up from the past or future that's fine also. You still can apply your thoughts and feelings about it as that thing applies to you right now. I will be with you as you read and apply these courses to your life, and I will guide you in what to do with the course you are on."

This came as such awareness to me, and I was so happy. So I started again, and lo and behold…

…course 132 was a completely different experience for me, as were those which followed. It was like a personal communication with exercises between the Holy Spirit and me: my own personal learning experience. Also, I no longer believed it was a course that was just for beginners after all, nor would there be anything wrong with that. It is for anyone at any place of Self-discovery.

That doesn't mean my resistance went away. It still took me about a year to complete the first four classes. But each one of those courses was a learning and healing experience.

Now I've been a student of ACIM for 18 years, and I am grasping the Course more intensely and seeing it come alive at a new depth because I am using these courses and applying them to whatever is happening in my life right now.

I'm seeing also not to be embarrassed or ashamed of "my" ego thoughts. They are guides to what Holy Spirit can heal for me. I can turn them over to Holy Spirit without fear of embarrassment. The ego thoughts are not really my thoughts, for they are not eternal. And I am.

(Note: I have noticed that when I shared on chat groups before, I was very caught up in how well my thoughts were regarded by others. I have been asking for help on this issue and have seen more peace surrounding this, thankfully.)

Thank you, Father.

Hugs!

Laurie Immekus

Pathways of Light Ministerial Student

Forgiveness is my message from Holy Spirit today

This morning I was listening to Holy Spirit. My mind was noisy again, for a short time. I just want to give first, what my lesson/message was from Him so I don't forget.

He said I can apply forgiveness all day, more than I realized before. I can see that forgiveness is a part of the Diamond I saw from being in Heaven. The Diamond represents all the aspects of reality or those things in the illusion that lead to reality. So not only are giving and receiving the same, but forgiveness is the same with them because they are all parts, all facets of the Diamond.

He said I could use forgiveness all day long, practically in every minute.

One of the things he showed me is that I haven't forgiven myself for all the unforgiving roles I've played as a body in the illusion. It can work when you think of “past lives” or if you work with only “one life,” for as we know from ACIM Teacher's Manual:

There is no past or future, and the idea of birth into a body has no meaning either once or many times. Reincarnation cannot, then, be true in any real sense. Our only question should be, “Is the concept helpful?” [M.24.para1.lines 2-4]

So I was looking at some drama from my dream when I awoke this morning, and the Holy Spirit used it to help me in this way. In the drama, sometimes I was a prisoner/slave and sometimes I was a guard. The picture kept changing so I went back and forth being slave/master/prisoner/guard without a break in the story line. When I was a guard most of the time I felt so “good.” I wasn't afraid of anything and I felt like I was one of the good people. When I was a slave or prisoner I felt fear and guilt and shame and anger. I was in the group of people trying to escape. Next thing I know, I'm trying to stop the prisoners from escaping and from hurting us, the “innocent” ones.

So, fast forward to now: because I haven't forgiven myself for all the unforgiving roles I've played as a body in the illusion, I find many ways to keep this “role play” going on and on. One thing He showed me I do is to look for the role play when I watch TV: I like shows that I can use to make myself feel innocent, I join in the role of someone in the show. Obviously, this is the answer to the reason I like to watch shows in which they find the guilty person and lock them up, so we “good” people can be safe. But also, that it works in ways that don't seem so obvious. That I like some science fiction because the people in it are free of guilt, they are following noble goals, they are not trapped in “old-world” thinking.

There was a lot more coming to me from Holy Spirit but I'm going to finish this retelling of it for now. The main thing was that I can use forgiveness much more than I thought I could as the day goes on. Holy Spirit said that in almost every moment that I am “in the world” there is an opportunity for forgiveness.

Then when the lesson was over I had a clear mind again. I felt peaceful. And so grateful to have a bigger picture of how to forgive throughout the day.

Forgiving as it teaches in ACIM: that this is only a dream, you and I are not guilty, we are spirit. We are One with God and with each other. There are no bad people, no good people. There is only Us and we are in this together.

Thank you Father.

Hugs all

Somethin's goin on here...

...inside my mind. It's quiet!!!

Hallelujah! Halle-leu! Halle-leu!

And so I thought, does this mean I'm enlightened? Well I found out when I started listening to people on ACIM Gather and by reading stuff on this group that I'm not enlightened. I felt jealousy, lack, and saw myself planning ways to make myself look good. LOL! It's so funny, that ego is so funny when you watch it like this.

But what I'm noticing is now that my mind is quiet-er, it's much much easier to watch the mind. Well I was able to watch the mind before, but because of the pain in my thoughts/feelings, I had to do lots of things to cover up the pain.

Just take my word for it when you meet other Course students who are overweight or smoking or watching too much tv or doing something else that doesn't seem real consistent with letting go of the world, or you are doing it yourself, that person is 99.9% likely to be in real mental/emotional pain. Compassion is called for here...this is a hard way to get yourself ready for enlightment but it seems to be what works for some of us.

That's me. Or it was me, but now it really really looks like I'm free of it. This is the first time I'm talking about it after five days of it because I wasn't sure if the ego was fooling me and being quiet to lure me in. LOL! Now I know! There was a healing! A Healing! WooHoo!!!

This morning I was sitting in the kitchen having absolutely no cravings for food. So I just ate what I thought would be good for my body at the same time I was thinking about how my body isn't real. LOL! That's not normal for me!! Well, what I mean is, it WASN'T normal for me, but it is becoming normal for me. WOOT! (Did you notice I'm happy here?)

But the really really neat cool sweet part is that I just sat there in the quiet, and I had no desire to do anything. I need do nothing. Oh no, now I'm crying for joy just thinking about it. I'm so happy, so grateful. I love you all so much. Thank you, Friends. Going off to meditate now, will talk again.

Hugs All! Laurie Light Experiences

(note: reprinted from http://groups.yahoo.com/group/The_Peace_of_God/message/17118)

A Simple Act of Forgiveness, but how?

As the Amish families in Pennslyvania are forgiving today, the media is asking "How can you forgive so soon?"

Perhaps the media doesn't really understand forgiveness, at least not "advanced forgiveness." In advance forgiveness, we don't look at what the person did and try to accept it. Nor do we say, "It's ok that you transgressed. I will be the bigger person and forgive you."

Advanced forgiveness is much simpler than that, and also less understood. It is seeing the "reality" of the person, seeing them as we believe God would see them: as a spirit, as a child of God, as the love of God. We don't even look at their actions during the forgiveness process. This actually makes it easier if you can attempt this process because you don't have to look at what they did and try to understand it or accept it.

So we say, "I see you for who you really are, God's Child. Healed, whole, one with God, the Light, the Love of God. My brother. And in this light I see myself the same way."

Perhaps this is how Gandhi was able to forgive the man who shot him, causing his fatal wound.

You can be a force for love, God's Love, in this world. Just practice forgiveness everyday, with everyone you know, see, or meet. Including yourself.

For more information on forgiveness, God and Love, take a look at the books called A Course in Miracles (acim).

God is Love

God is Love. That is what I discovered during my light experience, when I went to Heaven. God is Love, and we are His creations: we are created FROM Love. In Love. As Love.

ACIM Gather this week: Worthiness

Greetings Dears!

This week during the Light Experiences chat group, hosted by ACIM Gather on Paltalk, we talked about "Worthiness" and David Fishman gave a synopsis of his light experience, which he experienced as an out-of-body experience, and experienced "electricity" going through his body. Thank you, David, that was so powerful. This chat group was a fantastic time and a meaningful time of sharing.

Please join us next Thursday when we will discuss "The Ego Screams" and will ask for a volunteer to share their light experience.

Childhood Out-of-Body Experience

Robert Mills shared his childhood light experience with us recently on the Light Experiences home page.

I met Robert Mills at Pathways of Light in Kiel, Wisconsin while we were both there at an Ordination weekend. Robert has dedicated his life to helping others and to following the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

You can hear Robert on the internet on Sunday mornings at 10 am eastern on ACIM Gather on PalTalk. Robert will conduct a Pathways of Light Inspired meeting. Here's the link: http://acimgather.org/specialevents.htm#Sun

Am I worthy to see a spiritual master?

A friend of mine saw Jesus, but was he worthy of it?

Do we have to earn the right to be worthy to see someone, say such as a spiritual master? I guess it seems like they would appear to someone who could carry their message to others, maybe that is why we think "worthiness" is an issue here.

Do you believe in spiritual masters who can appear and disappear at will?

Recently we have had a lot of "excitement" in this community because some well-known ACIM students/writers decided to challenge the idea that, Arten and Pursah, the spiritual masters of Gary Renard's books, even actually exist. Well, you probably know the rest, and anyway, that isn't the main focus of this discussion.

But I think it's important to notice that we are always talking to people who don't exist: each other. According to A Course in Miracles (as I understand it), there is only ONE of us. That is the meaning of Oneness.

So if you "see" someone who doesn't exist, (seeing meaning to detect them in some way), is it a mistake to talk to them?

What about Jesus? Isn't he one of them? There have been many many people who have said that they have seen him. Is that different than seeing Arten or Pursah?

Someone I know had an experience seeing Jesus about 30-some years ago. He was in his car, driving when suddenly Jesus appeared on the seat next to him. According to my friend, they had just a "normal" conversation, nothing deep or significant, and then Jesus disappeared into a ray of light. He was shook, but didn't tell anyone for fear of what they would think, if for no other reason than my friend is Jewish and he didn't think people would appreciate him seeing Jesus.

Twenty years later, when I told him about my experience with God, he decided to trust me with his experience of Jesus. I was the first person he had told.

"I can't figure out why he chose me," my friend said. "I'm Jewish."

"Maybe it wasn't just for you, after all you told me the story and it meant a lot to me," I told him.

In actuality, I think communication with someone who can have a spiritual impact on us, for whatever reason, is never just for "me" in the sense that I would believe myself to be a small, separate person. It is always for us, for the ONE us. We don't even have to share the experience in the normal sense because we share the one mind. We are all helped.

Is Elvis an Angel? a Miracle Worker?

We know from biographical accounts that Elvis became very spiritual before he "made his transition" to the next phase of his existance. But now we have some information that he may be assisting people who are having near-death experiences.

According to Dr. Melvin Morse in his book on near-death experiences entitled "Transformed by the Light," a 45 year old Midwestern teacher saw Elvis Presley in an intense light during her near death experience. The woman had met Elvis when she was a child.

The following is from her near-death account:

"I entered into a dark tunnel and suddenly I was in a place filled up with love and a beautiful, bright light. The place seemed holy. My father, who had died two years earlier, was there, as were my grandparents. Everyone was happy to see me, but my father told me it was not my time and I would be going back. Just as I turned to go, I caught sight of Elvis! He was standing in this place of intense bright light. He just came over to me, took my hand and said, "Hi, Bev, do you remember me?" (Mauro,1992)

Dr. Raymond Moody wrote an entire book on Elvis sightings, including near-death experiences, entitled "Elvis After Life." Because of the large number of devoted Elvis fans, it should not be a surprise that people having NDEs should be greeted by the King.

Kevin Williams has this account and others at the web site he authors called "Near-Death Experiences & the Afterlife." Here is the link: http://www.near-death.com/


I think Elvis might be using his fame in the service of God, as he sees God, which after all is what Miracle Workers do. As it says in A Course in Miracles (ACIM, Course):

"A teacher of God is anyone who chooses to be one. His qualifications consist solely in this; somehow, somewhere he has made a deliberate choice in which he did not see his interests as apart from someone else's. Once he has done that, his road is established and his direction is sure. A light has entered the darkness. It may be a single light, but that is enough." (ACIM Manual, 1. Who are God's Teachers?"

Some psychics tell us that it is not uncommon for people to continue or begin to do "service work" in the next level, what we might call "life between lives." Being on the spiritual welcome wagon would be one way to do that.

And what are psychics anyway but just people who can communicate with someone who isn't in (what we consider to be) a physical body. After all, as ACIM students many of us communicate with Jesus and the Holy Spirit. At least one ACIM student, Gary Renard, communicates with spiritual Masters who can appear and disappear on this "level" at their discretion.

Madame Helena Blavatsky, the founder of modern Theosophy, is another person reported by psychics to be seen greeting people as they enter the next life.

A teacher of God does not have to be a student of ACIM. In fact, according to that same section:

"He has entered an agreement with God even if he does not yet believe in Him." (ibid)

I don't know about you, but I think Elvis makes a great angel. Good work, brother!

Do you have any thoughts on this topic? If so, then post them here.

There is a candle in your heart...

Jalaluddin Rumi was a 13th century Persian mystic and poet. Today we know him simply as Rumi. Here then, in this poem, he brings us a light experience. Thank you, Rumi.

There is a candle in your heart...

There is a candle in your heart,
ready to be kindled.
There is a void in your soul,
ready to be filled.
You feel it, don’t you?
You feel the separation
from the Beloved.
Invite Him to fill you up,
embrace the fire.
Remind those who tell you otherwise that
Love
comes to you of its own accord,
and the yearning for it
cannot be learned in any school.

~Rumi

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